4 years old

Wow. Time has flown. Almost every month I would say to myself that I wanted to update this, and time just slipped away. I can't believe its been over a year. Ethan just turned 4 on Saturday. He is 41 3/4 inches and 39.4 lbs. He's in the upper 60s/low 70s for weight/height respectively I believe. I'll have to double check the paper. He is just getting over a little cold, and money is tight this year so we didn't do any thing extravagant like normal. Last year we went to Disney World for his birthday. Wes and I took him to Circus Circus Adventuredome.  He wanted to go on the train first, but we weren't allowed to go with him and he was do terrified she had to stop the ride and let him off. Poor baby. I did not want to make him cry on his birthday!  So we went and played  arcade games with him instead. Kristen and her bf Anthony came over and we picked up Yia and ordered pizza and had ice cream cake. He wanted a lightning mcqueen cake which was pretty random since he's really into Disney Planes Fire & Rescue  and a science based cartoon called Blaze and the Monster Machines. But we did it and Wes and I surprised him with a train table. I also got him a blue submarine per his request. Overall, he enjoyed his birthday.  The neighbors Jason, Kerri, and daughter Lacie stopped over and brought him  squirting gun shark and helI copter toy too so that was nice. We are leaving in an hour to go get the camper so I'm excited about that. As for Ethan, he is like an old man. I don't know if it's from being talked to like a grown up or from being the only child but he is so wise beyond his years and so mature. He knows right from wrong on a very deep level. He just has such higher level thinking for a little preschooler. He can tell when somethings wrong with me. He gives advice and makes suggestions.  He is so forgiving and easy-going. It's not always easy living in a house with someone witha brain injury and ptsd and he never let's it get to him. It's like water just slides off his back. He's my role model in that way and I wish I could be more like him. I strive to be a better mama to him all the time and need to learn to be more patient and hAve more FUN with him. Too often I feel caught in the trap of time constraints and all the chores I need to get done. We have started doing school at home, but I'll admit I haven't been the most consistent with it yet because we have been out of town a lot. Plus Wes has had a lot of doctors appointments that mess with keeping a schedule and routine..not to mention sometimes it takes Ethan 3 hours to get through the work. I try to make parts of it as fun as I can but I don't wanna force him or have him dislike it because I believe in himeschooling, roadschooling, some u schooling so I just let him tell me when he's ready to continue and sometimes we play little games with our letters and sounds and words. He can do 1st grade level math but he struggles with writing.  He's just not super interested in things like drawing or coloring or writing letters or his name..but he can read better Than some of the struggling end of year kindergartenwes I taught. I'm sure he will get there. Anyway, he failed his eye exam. Doc said he should be 20/30 or 20/40 and he was 20/50 so we have to take him to an optometrist in the next 6 months she said. I don't know if he just got confused with the shapes or letters or what but wes said he was squinting so idk if he was doing that on purpose or not but we all wear glasses, I just hope he doesn't need them this soon!